Being Part of an Avalanche of Love

I have a confession to make: I don’t think this country is going to survive the next several years intact.

But I have decided to put that feeling on hold – to pretend I don’t believe it. I’m going to pretend that a difference can be made – that we can manage to emerge from this dark time a country that puts people, not money and power, first. A country that actually takes care of each other, and the planet. And perhaps, I am mistaken, and that can happen.

In the (now many fewer, I’ve tired of it) online arguments with right-wing people that I’ve had, I actually enjoy being called a snowflake. Because of course, individual snowflakes easily melt. But when snowflakes come together, they are quite powerful.

I’m spending 2018 focused on democracy. I feel like this moment calls me to that particular path. I know it calls others to other paths, and I as I’ve said before, I think we need to do all of the things, and not have arguments about what the right strategy is – just do anything we each are called to do.

I’m going to adopt a few candidates, a couple in CA, and a couple elsewhere, who are challenging GOP candidates in districts that are (at least vaguely) winnable. I’ll find out ways I can support those candidates (financially and otherwise.)  I’m going to also do what I can around getting the vote out, and combating voter suppression. I created a Facebook Group to gather other folks interested in that effort.

It’s true, avalanches are destructive.  But we need that right now. We need to destroy a culture that ignores children killed while they attend school. We need to destroy a culture that ignores unarmed men and women killed by police. We need to destroy a culture that privileges billionaires over people who have little. We need to destroy a culture that is destroying our ability to survive on this planet. These things need destroying.


What’s Coming in 2018

I was pondering what to write for a New Year’s post. I don’t generally do a post for New Year’s, but somehow it seemed a good idea for this year. For one, it’s a big year for me. Two, I think it’s a big year for all of us – at least potentially.

I think I have one major intention I have for the year – and that is simply (simple, but not easy) to be present and open for the wide variety of things I know are going to happen this year. A lot of things are settling and changing in my life, and I’m meeting a lot of new people, and making new friends. The littler intentions are:

  • Get more involved in local community activism.
  • Write more (fiction, essays.)
  • Learn lots of stuff (I’m currently focused on data science and machine learning.)
  • Take care of my body and heart.

I also think that this is, for this country, a make or break year. This is the year we either break the grip of this authoritarian-capitalist cabal, or the country enters into a death-spiral.

Frankly, I’m not so worried about California, New York, and the 1/2 dozen other progressive coastal states with vibrant economies that don’t actually need the rest of the country. I’m sure that the local pressure for things like single-payer health care, educational investment, renewable energy, livable wage, affordable housing, etc. will continue and in fact increase in those states in the face of a country going in the other direction. If things get way much worse, we can always just leave. (Yes, that’s complicated, but it’s not impossible.)

But I am worried about the millions of immigrants, people of color, LGBTQIIA folks, disabled, and poor and working-class people in the states that don’t have such vibrant economies, and are held in a headlock by the right. (And those DO correlate.)

Next year, like every year, I’m going to vote. But my vote is going to have zero effect – I live in a super-deep blue county in a super-deep blue state. I already have a representative I can really respect, and one Senator I really like (the other one I often have trouble with, but not since last year.) My state reps are, on the whole, great people. So I’m going to give time and $ to whoever is challenging the two geographically closest GOP congressional representatives whose districts either are mixed or lean Democratic: Jeff Denham (10th district) and David Valadeo (21st district.)

And I’m going to keep doing what makes sense to me to do, which is what I think we all need to do. No judgement on who is doing it “right.” No holier than thou. No purity tests. No “my strategy is better than your strategy.” Let’s just do all of the things, and keep bending the arc of history toward justice.


I’m Coming Out

Right now, I’m playing the hit Diana Ross sang in the 1980’s (written by Bernard Edwards and Nile Rodgers) “I’m Coming Out.” It has been such an anthem in my life, as in the lives of many queer people. I can’t even count how many gay bars, marches, or events I’ve heard this song played at, or have danced to.

There’s a new me coming out
And I just had to live
And I wanna give
I’m completely positive
I think this time around
I am gonna do it
Like you never knew it
Ooh, I’ll make it through

Seems appropriate for this announcement. This has been brewing for about a year.

The image connected to this blog post is a hint, but I’ll lay it out. After living as an adult woman for 40 years, I’m transitioning to live as a man for the rest of it. The reasons for this decision are complex – I don’t have the standard narrative that “I’m a man born in the wrong body.” I actually identify as bi-gender – that is, I feel that both genders exist within me. That said, I’ve lived with gender dysphoria since puberty. I’ve spent many, many years working to love my body as it is. From therapy, to meditation practice, to embodied modalities such as Authentic Movement, all of which I deeply value and have made my life so much better. But they didn’t actually allow me the sense of being fully embodied and fully accepting of my body as it is.

What I came to was a full acceptance of the dysphoria, which is what led me to realize that the right avenue for me was to actually change my body and how I live my life. And, amazingly to me, once I made that decision, the embodiment I had sought for so long came to fruition. (To read in more detail about this process, and to keep up specifically on my transition process, you can read more at my other blog here.)

I’m legally changing my name to Maxwell next year. I’m having top surgery in early February.

In any big change, there are losses and gains, and I’m working to accept all of them with equanimity. One loss is one of community: I have been a part of the lesbian community for more than 30 years, and it feels weird to say “I’m not a lesbian anymore.” But it’s true – as I’m basically identifying as a man, I don’t get to be a lesbian anymore. I’ll miss that community, although I also have gotten to become a part of an amazing, loving, supportive community of trans-masculine folks, some of whom live right here in Sonoma County.

Life is quite the journey, and although there were many, many signs from very early on, I didn’t quite see this coming, so if you’re surprised, I get it. There’s more news, as well, and you can watch this video Ruth and I made for the Conscious Girlfriend Community.


You’re Not Off The Hook Just Because You Don’t Have Privilege

Preface: This is only about interactions and conversations with people who are active, committed allies. This is NOT about conversations with anyone in the alt-right, or your sexist, homophobic uncle.

I see this dynamic play out over, and over, and I realized I really needed to write something about it.

The dynamic is this: someone with privilege (race, gender, class, cis, sexuality, ability, etc.) says or does something. Perhaps it’s an unconscious mistake, or perhaps not. What happens next is that the person without privilege gets triggered. And then they speak about what that privileged person just said, which then triggers the person with privilege, because, of course it does.

And with both people speaking while they are triggered, they continue to injure each other, and probably themselves, too. The person without privilege gets more jaded, and the person with privilege gets more wounded, feels more shame, and nothing changes. They each bring this same dynamic into other places and spaces, and… no wonder everyone feels like shit about the whole thing.

What’s most important for both sides of this equation is learning to get untriggered before you speak. It’s just as important for the person without privilege as it is for the person with.

Why is this? This is not about what’s right, or what’s polite, or whatever. This isn’t tone policing. This is about what’s effective, knowing what we know about the brain. One of the things we know about the brain is that when we get triggered – we’re in fight or flight mode. Our amygdalas are active. And what do they do? They actively hijack traffic from your pre-frontal cortex – that’s your wise, thinking brain. The amygdala does that because it’s not evolutionarily advantageous for us to be thinking when we’re in mortal danger.  But it gets us in all sorts of trouble because in this modern world, we’re not all that often in mortal danger. And you might think you’re being brilliant in your riposte to what you are sure was the racist/sexist/homophobic/transphobic/classist comment someone made, but you’re not. You are actually not using your wise, thinking mind. Which means that whatever you think happened isn’t necessarily what happened, and what you say isn’t going to be effective. And how a conversation like that unfolds is never going to result in the outcome you’re looking for.

Why is it that what you think happened isn’t necessarily what actually happened? First off, as I said, when you got triggered, your brain turned off your wise mind – so you can’t effectively evaluate what was said or done in that state. Second, our brains are masters at filling in blanks – it’s really an important tool, but when it comes to interpersonal relationships, the way our brains fill in blanks is actually quite often wrong.

Anyway, if you keep doing this, it’s going to keep being the same thing, over and over. We can’t move forward with our amygdalas. That’s part of why we’re in the mess we’re in. Those of us without privilege don’t get off the hook, sadly. We still have to do our own work to do, too.


Three Communities, Right Now

I am likely one of a very few people who has nosebleed seats to the goings on in three different communities right now. I say nosebleed because I’m not closely involved in any one of these controversies, but because of my spiritual, avocational, and professional histories, I remain connected to these communities.

So in no particular order, here we go:


Drupal is an open source CMS that I used to build websites with. It has a large vibrant community of developers (of which I used to be a part) who contribute to it, and advance it, and just basically make it run well, and build cool stuff with it. Like many open-source communities, it has a “Benevolent Dictator for Life,” generally the person who started the whole thing in the first place. Over the past few weeks, a very long-time contributor to the project, named Larry Garfield (also known as crell) was asked to leave his leadership position by Dries Buytaert, Drupal’s BDFL. In the beginning, it seemed that the issue had to do with Larry’s particular BDSM lifestyle, but later, after the unveiling of DrupalConfessions, it has appeared that there may well be more to it than that. Again, I can’t really say, because, nosebleed. But it has left the Drupal community in disarray.

Unitarian Universalist Association.

A few weeks ago, the UUA President, Peter Morales, resigned just ahead of the end of his term, because of a controversy relating to the hiring of yet another white guy to lead the Southern District, when there was (at least) one woman of color who was eminently qualified for the post. There has been a lot of weeping and gnashing of teeth, as well as three amazing people stepping up to lead the UUA at this time, and, of course, some backlash about the co-presidents (and some wonderful responses to the backlash.)

OdysseyCon and the science fiction writing community.

One of the guests of honor to OdysseyCon emailed the organizers to express that the guest liaison is someone who is a known sexual harasser, and she didn’t feel safe. And the OdysseyCon concom (convention committee) poured salt on the wound by not listening, then she, and finally all of the guests of honor pulled out. And now everyone is talking about it. I would not say that the SF community is roiling in the same way.

What’s interesting to me in my nosebleed perspective is how similar these are to each other, even though they are completely different. They certainly are eliciting similar emotions on both sides of the controversies. There are definitely conversations about safety, who feels safe, who is safe. One could say that all of these are just about white men acting badly. But, on top there are issues of who has power and why. It’s more dimensional than that, of course, but power, whether it be the power to hire and fire, the power to make big decisions for a community, or the power to allow certain voices and disallow others is something few want to give up when they have it, and, predominantly, white men have it.

We’re in for a rough patch, I think. We are “led” by a group of basically unabashed white male heterosexual supremacists, and having to deal with that and then deal with it in the communities we might be involved with is a double whammy. And the problem is, this is not likely to get better. Because of the current administration, some people now believe that they don’t have to worry about their behavior. They can complain about people who are being “PC.” Be careful out there.


Contemplating the Questions

I don’t have much in me right now, except for questions. So I’ll ask them, sit with them, and perhaps you can sit with them with me.

First, How can I balance my regular life with the effort, work, actions needed at this time?

These are not normal times, and this is not a normal, garden variety conservative president. I remember what life was like under Reagan, Bush I and Bush II. My life went on, pretty much as normal. I was an activist, so I did activism, but it didn’t feel like an emergency – urgent, but not life-threatening. Most of us have to work to eat, keep the roof over our heads, keep our cats in kibble, so there has to be some modicum of a normal working life. But sometimes it feels like even that is problematic now. How can I plan courses or events, or launch new products, or write new code, when all this stuff is happening? But I have to, at the same time.

What effort, work, actions are really needed?

This is the tough one. On one hand, sure, writing our congresspeople, marching in the streets, doing other kinds of activism, is important – but what is really going to make a difference? We have someone in office who actually seems not to care at all about the rule of law, nor does he respect the balance of powers. So what is really going to make the biggest difference? Those of us against Trump might be in the majority, but there are an awful lot of people who like authoritarians, and are fine with what he’s doing. So what actions can I take that are going to have the biggest effect?

How to reach those people?

Ultimately, white working-class people who are authoritarian Trump supporters are going to eventually be hurt too, since Trump actually doesn’t care about them. In fact, they’ve already been hurt when he took away the interest discount for home buyers. But one of the hallmarks of Trump’s campaign has been that facts don’t actually matter to many people. Telling someone who says of the new ban on immigrants and refugees from the selected countries that none of them were responsible for a terrorist attack in the US isn’t actually going to make a difference to them. In general, humans are really hard to convince with facts when those facts don’t align with their pre-existing beliefs, but some humans have spent time and effort disciplining themselves to critical thinking approaches. But unless both sides of a conversation have that same approach, there can’t actually be a conversation. So how do we talk with people like this? How do we show them that they will be hurt too? Or maybe, ultimately, as long as they aren’t hurt all that much, they won’t care – they’ll be the “good Americans.”

What’s the endgame?

I’ll be very happy to see information that suggests that I am wrong about this, but I’m not seeing a way back to normal democratic process here in the United States. Dick Cheney actually said of the recent immigration ban that it “goes against everything we stand for and believe in…” That’s all well and good, but he’s one of the few men responsible for the process that led us to the mess we’re in right now. I just re-watched the movie “Lincoln” which shows how brilliantly Lincoln managed to end the Civil War, and bring the nation back together… sort of. The sad fact of the matter is that we have at least two different countries (actually 11, if you talk with Colin Woodard.) And I’m not sure that these countries are really compatible anymore.

And even if somehow, we manage to get rid of Trump, there is still Pence. And the Democratic Party holds a minority of everything except mayors – minority of congress, state legislatures and governors. How are we going to turn that around, and can we? And I’d also love to see information that suggest otherwise, but the toxic combination of the inevitable  exacerbation of income inequality and inaction on global climate change that comes with GOP leadership means disintegration, if not in the short term, in the medium term. So what do I do with all of that?

And what about practice?

I keep feeling called to a deeper engagement with spiritual practice. I’ve felt that over the past few years, but the tug is even stronger now. How do I live into that while all this is going on?What does that look like?

As I said, all I have are questions, now.



It’s Not Patriotic to Complain About Sitting for the National Anthem

Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof; or abridging the freedom of speech, or of the press; or the right of the people peaceably to assemble, and to petition the Government for a redress of grievances.

That’s the first amendment to our constitution. Congress shall make no law… abridging the freedom of speech… One of the most important founding principles of this problematic country, is that we are free to speak our minds. It is, in my opinion, the principle that defines us best, and the only one that can eventually lead us to a country that is truly just. And, the rub, of course, is when people speak in ways that we happen not to like. The statement, “I hate what you are saying, but I will defend to my death your right to say it.” is a reflection of the complexity of this particular founding principle.

The national anthem is a cultural instrument. There is no law, nor could there be, that forces anyone to do anything in particular during the anthem. You could sing “God Save the Queen” at the top of your voice if you wanted to. You could dance, you could stand on your head. And, you can sit. That’s called freedom of speech.

Thoughtless patriotism leads to tyranny. If we don’t want tyranny (few people actually do) we need thoughtful patriotism. And thoughtful patriotism says that when someone sits during the national anthem, they are expressing their freedom of speech. Yay!


“You will know them by their fruits.”

It has been a sad few days since the Orlando shooting at the Pulse gay bar. I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about how to address the intersecting issues that arose in the aftermath of the shooting. The issues around gun control, rising Islamophobia, the apparent self-hatred of the shooter, and the ways in which people are talking about (or not talking about) the issues at hand.

As I’ve been thinking about this, a set of verses from Matthew come to mind:

Matthew 7:15-20 says:

15 ‘Beware of false prophets, who come to you in sheep’s clothing but inwardly are ravenous wolves. 16You will know them by their fruits. Are grapes gathered from thorns, or figs from thistles? 17In the same way, every good tree bears good fruit, but the bad tree bears bad fruit. 18A good tree cannot bear bad fruit, nor can a bad tree bear good fruit. 19Every tree that does not bear good fruit is cut down and thrown into the fire. 20Thus you will know them by their fruits.

Now of course, these verses are often used by conservative Christians to beat people over the head with, and tell people they are going to hell. But when you really read the gospels, and listen to what Jesus said, you can’t mistake what these fruits really are. The fruits are acts of kindness and compassion to people no matter who they are, nonviolence, welcoming the stranger, and taking care of the poor, hungry, sick and imprisoned.

And I keep thinking about our politicians and public figures whose only fruits are fear, hatred and delusion, even as they speak platitudes, and send their “thoughts and prayers” while sowing more fear and hatred. How do we hold them accountable for these fruits? How do we make it clear that we will accept nothing but words and actions that decrease violence and increase compassion for everyone in our country, no matter who they are, or where they are from? I don’t have any answers immediately, but maybe, sort of like the far from perfect “Politifact” we need something that can measure and publicize the fruits of those who wield political, economic and social power in this country.





Michelle Murrain received her B.A. in Natural Science and Mathematics from Bennington College, and her Ph.D. in Biology from Case Western Reserve University. She was an HIV/AIDS educator and advocate in the early part of the HIV epidemic in Cleveland, OH, and was part of training hotline workers that staffed the first statewide HIV/AIDS Information hotline. Michelle taught at Hampshire College from 1989 through 1999, as Assistant and Associate Professor of Biology. She conducted studies primarily on the AIDS epidemic, particularly as it affected women and people of color. She was also involved in AIDS education and advocacy during the first half of the 1990s. She was involved in several grant-funded projects to enhance in-service science education for educators in the region, particularly in terms of use of technology in the classroom. She helped organize two conferences on technology in education, in 1998 and 1999.

In 1995, Michelle started a consulting practice that served the non-profit and educational sectors, primarily in the areas of developing database-driven web-sites, the implementation of Open Source software, and strategic technology planning. She was a nationally recognized leader in the nonprofit technology field. She was on the steering committee of the Non Profit Open Source Initiative (NOSI), and was a member of the boards of NTEN, the Nonprofit Technology Network, and of Aspiration, an organization that fosters software development in the nonprofit/NGO sector. Michelle has written many articles and reports for scholarly journals, educational and nonprofit audiences, and the public.

Michelle is a published poet, and a writer of speculative fiction. In 2005, Michelle wanted to explore theological issues, and incorporate them into her life and work. She went to Pacific School of Religion in Berkeley, California, and received her Certificate in Theological Studies in December of 2006. In 2014, Michelle co-founded Conscious Girlfriend, with her partner, Ruth Schwartz, a service that helps lesbians and queer women have conscious, fulfilling relationships.

Curriculum Vitae



2005-2006 Pacific School of Religion, Berkeley, CA 94709
Certificate of Theological Studies

1991-1993 University of Massachusetts, Amherst, Amherst, MA 01003
Graduate Courses in Epidemiology and Public Health

1981-1987 Case Western Reserve University, Cleveland, OH 44106
Ph.D. degree in Biology, May 1987


1977-1981 Bennington College, Bennington, VT 05201
B.A. degree in Natural Science and Math, June 1981


Positions Held

Co-Founder, Conscious Girlfriend, 2014-present
Science Fiction Writer, 2006-present
Technology Consultant to Non-profit organizations, 1996-2014
Associate Professor of Biology, Hampshire College, 1995-1999
Acting Director, Five College Women’s Studies Research Center, Fall 1998
Acting Dean of Multicultural Affairs, Hampshire College, Spring 1996
Assistant Professor of Biology, Hampshire College, 1989-1995
Post Doctoral Fellow, Colorado State University, 1987-1989



Honors and Fellowships

Sigma Xi Distinguished Lecturer, 1997-1999
James E. Blackwell Distinguished Black Scholar, 1992
Graduate Fellowship, Case Western Reserve University, 1981-1987



Selected Grants Awarded

Co-Prinicpal investigator, NIH Science Education Partnership Award, 1995-1998. For dissemination and evaluation of Hampshire’s partnership programs for pre-college science.
Co-Investigator, NIH/ADAMHA Science Education Partnership Award, 1991-1994. For an educational partnership program between Hampshire College and the Holyoke and Chicopee school systems.



Academic/Professional Publications

Murrain, M. Open Office: Open Source Productivity Application. Lasa ICT Hub Knowledgebase. August, 2007
Murrain, M. Database Options for the Macintosh. Lasa ICT Hub Knowledgebase. July 2007
Murrain, M. Still Searching for the Holy Grail of Data Integration. NTEN Connect, June 2007
Murrain, M. Open Content for Nonprofits. Third Sector New England e-bulletin. May, 2007
Murrain, M. Let’s Talk: How Open APIs Can Change How Nonprofits Manage Data. Nonprofit Technology Enterprise Network. March, 2007
Murrain, M. with R. Cowan, R. Silvers, A. Schneiderman, A. Hickman and J. McClelland. Choosing and Using Open Source Software: A primer for Nonprofits. Non Profit Open Source Initiative:2004
Murrain, M. and Verclas, K. “Using Open Source Software in Your Nonprofit Organization” Dot Org Media #11: February, 2004
Murrain, M. and Cohen, D. “Infrastructure Outsourcing for Nonprofit Organizations” Dot Org Media: Adopting Technology Series: 2003
Murrain, M. “Open Source Database Technologies”, TechSoup, April 2002
Chase, J. Bruno, M. Murrain, M. and Chase, C. School/College Partnerships: Inquiry Based Science and Technology for all students and Teachers, 1997
Murrain, M.and Barker, T. (1997) Investigating the Link Between Economic Status and HIV Risk. The Journal of Health Care for the Poor and Underserved, 8(4):416-23.
Murrain, M.(1996) Differential Survival in Blacks and Hispanics with AIDS. Ethnicity and Health., 1(4):373-82.
Murrain, M. “Caught in the Crossfire:Women and the Search for the Magic Bullet” in Gender Politics of HIV, Jennifer Manlowe and Nancy Goldstein, Eds. 1997 NY:NYU Press
Murrain, M. “My perspectives on Internet Resources for Health” in Dr. Tom Linden’s Guide to Online Medicine by Tom Linden, MD and Michelle Kienholz. NY:McGraw-Hill, 1995
Murrain, M. “Women of Color and AIDS: Gender, Race, Class and Science,” in Race and Ethnicity in America: Meeting the Challenge in the 21st Century, Gail Thomas, Ed. NY:Taylor and Francis, 1995
McNeal, Ann P. ; Murrain Michelle, “Tips on Writing a Library Research Paper.” College Teaching 43(1):1995
Murrain, M. (1994) What Womanist Science Would Look Like. The Womanist, 1(1):17-18
Murrain, M. (1993) Different Rates of Opportunistic Infections in Women with AIDS. J. Women’s Health. 2(3):243-250
Fletcher-Cruz, E., Koteen, E., Murrain, M., and Palladino, D. and “Women and AIDS: a Crisis in Western Massachusetts” a Report of the Western Massachusetts Women and AIDS Working Group, 1992
Murrain, M. “How AIDS Drugs Work” Positive Woman, December, 1991
Murrain, M., A.D. Murphy, L.R. Mills and S.B. Kater. (1990) Neuron-specific Modulation of Regenerative Outgrowth and Intracellular Calcium within the CNS of Helisoma. J. Neurobiol. 21(4):611
Mattson, M.P., M. Murrain, and P.B. Guthrie. (1990) Localized calcium influx orients axon formation in embryonic hippocampal pyramidal neurons. Dev. Brain Res. 52(1-2):201-9
Mattson, M.P., M. Murrain, P.B. Guthrie, and S.B. Kater. (1989) Fibroblast growth factor and glutamate: opposing roles in the generation and degeneration of hippocampal neuroarchitecture. J. Neurosci. 9(11):3728-3740
Murrain, M. and R.E. Ritzmann. (1988) Analysis of proprioceptive inputs to DPG interneurons in the cockroach. J. Neurobiol. 19 (6):552-570



Book Reviews

The Equity Equation:Fostering the Advancement of Women in the Sciences, Mathematics and Engineering, for College Teaching, 1997
Handbook of Black American Health, for Medical Anthropology Quarterly, 1995



Invited Lectures

“Briding the Gap Between Social and Scientific Aspects of the AIDS Epidemic” Keynote Speech, Massachusetts Department of Mental Health HIV/AIDS Trainers Conference, Fall 1996
“Race, Class and HIV Risk” Swarthmore College, Spring 1996
“Caught in the Crossfire: Women and the Search for the Magic Bullet.” Brown University, Fall 1995
“Women and AIDS: Gender, Race and Class.” Framingham State College, Spring 1995
“Gender, Race and AIDS clinical trials.” Connecticut College, Fall 1994


Selected Conference Presentations

Norvig, L., Bates, J., Koltermann, M., Murrain, M. Building and Supporting Drupal Websites, NTEN NTC 2012
Murrain, M. Bates, J., Booth, I., Craner, J. Advanced Drupal Users Salon
Murrain, M.
Sustaining and Supporting Open Source, NTEN NTC 2004
Murrain, M. How to Decide to Implement Open Source Software, NTEN Boston, 2004
Murrain, M. Technology on A Shoestring. NTEN Roundup, 2003
Murrain, M. Open Source for Nonprofits: Is open source software an effective solution for the nonprofit sector? NTEN Roundup, 2003
Murrain, M., Bruno, M. and Campbell, D. Computers in Science Education, a pre- and in-service course for teachers. Society for Information Technology and Teacher Education, March 1997
Murrain, M. Wright, P. and Campbell D. Technology Resource Teams: Providing Training and Support for Teachers. Education Trust, November, 1997
Murrain, M and Goodman, A. “The Biology of Poverty” – an Undergraduate Course on Social Inequalities in Health, American Public Health Association Annual Meeting, November 1996
Murrain, M. HIV/AIDS and Socioeconomic Status: The Ignored Co-Factor. American Public Health Association Annual Meeting, October 1995
Murrain, M. Expendable Women:Gender, Race and AZT. National Women’s Studies Association Conference, June 1995
Murrain, M. Class Race and Science: Implications for HIV Prevention in Women. Reversing the Trend:Strategies for HIV Prevention Among Minority Women. Texas A&M University, April 1995
Murrain, M. Survival of Women with AIDS: An Analysis of CDC Data. American Psychological Association: Psychosocial and Behavioral Factors in Women’s Health: Creating an Agenda for the 21st Century, May 1994.
Murrain, M. Women and AIDS: Race, Gender and Science, Dissenting Ways of Knowing: Challenging Global Scientism, April 1994
Murrain, M. Scientific Research and the Burden of AIDS on African-American Women, in the panel: “The Cultural and Biological Dimensions of Global Change and Its Impact on Women in the African Diaspora,” 13th International Congress of Anthropological and Ethnological Sciences, July 1993
Murrain, M., An Analysis of Epidemiological Data on Women and HIV: Implications for Practice and Policy, AIDS: The Second Decade — Update on Women and HIV, May 1992
Murrain, M., The Epidemiology of Opportunistic Infections in Women and Men with AIDS. Fifth National Forum on AIDS, Hepatitis and other Blood-Borne Diseases, April 1992
Maguire, E. and M. Murrain, The Effects of Low Molecular Weight Growth Factor on the Regeneration of an Identified Neuron in Helisoma trivolvis. East Coast Nerve Net, March 1992
Murrain, M., E. Koteen, and D. Palladino, Women and AIDS. Provisions II: Regional AIDS Conference, November 1991
Murrain, M., L.R. Mills and S.B. Kater. Visualization of Intracellular Calcium in Helisoma Neurons In Situ. Soc. Neurosci. Abstr. Vol 14, part 1, p583, 1988.
Murrain, M. and R.E. Ritzmann, Characterization of proprioceptive inputs to DPG interneurons in the cockroach. Soc. Neurosci. Abstr. Vol 12, part 2, p858 1986.
Murrain, M. and R.E. Ritzmann, Characterization of thoracic interneurons in the cockroach: Morphological and physiological analysis. Soc. Neurosci. Abstr., Vol 11, part 1, p164 1985.

Teaching activities training, June 2008
NinthBridge/EngenderHealth — “Linux Servers”, Summer 2002 (with Jamie McLelland)
Intec Netcourse (project of the Concord Consortium) Moderator, 1999-2000
Longmeadow Schools — “Microsoft Office for Teachers and Administrators”, Fall 1999 (with Paul Wright)
Springfield Public Schools Professional Development Program — “Advanced Internet: Web Page Design,” 1997-98, 1998-99, 1999-2000
Springfield Public Schools Professional Development Program — “Applying Internet Skills in the Science Classroom,” Spring 1996
Springfield Public Schools Professional Development Program — “Science in Cyberspace,” Summer 1996
University of Massachusetts, Social Thought and Political Economy Program — STPEC 492H, “African American Health Issues,” Spring 1996
SEPA Summer Teacher Training Workshops, Hampshire College — “AIDS: An Interdisciplinary Perspective,” Summer 1994
Howard Hughes Pre-College Science Workshop, Hampshire College — “Environment and Health: The Effect of Lead on Childhood Behavior,” Fall 1993
SEPA Summer Teacher Training Workshops, Hampshire College — “Drugs in the Nervous System” with Ann McNeal, Summer 1992
Grass Foundation Neurobiology Exchange Program, Brock University — Guest taught a week of Neurobiology Lecture and Laboratory, Spring 1991
Research Experiences for Undergraduates, Five College Neuroscience and Behavior Program — Supervised student research, Summer 1991
Howard Hughes Medical Institute Summer Program at Hampshire College — Taught and supervised student research, Summers 1990, 1991
“Women in Science,” Women’s Studies Program, Colorado State University, Fall 1988
Invited Lecturer: “Neurobiology: Discovering the Cellular Machinery of the Mind, ” Department of Anatomy and Neurobiology, Colorado State University, Spring 1989


Other Activities

Board of Directors, NTEN 2007-2012
List CoManager – UUBF-L (UU Buddhist Fellowship) 2003-2005
Board of Directors, Aspiration 2004-2005, 2008-2013
Steering Committee, Nonprofit Open Source Initiative 2001-present
Advisory Board, Public Interest Technology Project 1994-2000
Steering Committee, Five Colleges Women Studies Research Center 1994-1996
Coordinator, Hampshire College Feminist Studies Program 1994-1995
Co-Editor, Feminists in Science and Technology Newsletter 1992-1995
Western Massachusetts Women and AIDS Network
Co-Chair 1993-1995
Founding member 1991-1995
Board of Trustees, Institute for Science and Interdisciplinary Studies 1991-1996
AIDS/HIV Information Trainer and Consultant 1985-1999
Co-Moderator, Sci.Med.AIDS Usenet Newsgroup 1993-1999
Sci.Med.AIDS FAQ (Frequently Asked Questions) Maintainer 1994-1999
List Manager — Minority Health Internet Mailing List 1992-1999
Board of Directors, Cleveland Gay and Lesbian Community Center 1985-1987