Not a Lesbian Anymore
I came out in 1984ish at 25, a little later than some, sooner than many. I've lived as a lesbian since then, an identity that I valued, and a community I've enjoyed.
Being a lesbian has been a safe haven for me - I've been able to be gender non-conforming in ways that are not only tolerated, but celebrated. I've watched the community grow and change, and in many ways, assimilate into society, while still maintaining some sense of identity as a community.
But as I transition to male, I kick myself out of that community, which seems both appropriate and unfortunate. Yes, it means I become part of the trans community, part of the larger LGBTQQIAA umbrella. And frankly, the "T" has been in a somewhat uneasy alliance withe the "L" and "G" (as has the "B" and the "I", and both "A"s - frankly all of the letters can be a little uneasy together.)
I'll miss being a lesbian, frankly, just as there are a few ways that I'll miss being a woman. I want to find a way to embrace what's been great for me from that experience as I move into this new phase of my life.