Ever since I was in my mid-20s, I have been committed to growth and consciousness/awareness. Perhaps it's been life-long, but it's at least been conscious since that time. Part of it is just what I'm made of, and part of it is that I could see, in the small bits I had begun to do at that time, that my life was materially better and happier for it.
And, in many ways, my transition is a direct outgrowth of this commitment.
There are some things that have surprised me about this process, and one of them is that the nature of emotional, spiritual and psychological work I will do is shifting.
One example: people say a lot that testosterone increases one's access to anger and aggressiveness. In my life, I have had very, very little access to anger - mostly because expressing anger wasn't OK growing up. In fact, a lot of my emotional work over the past few years was increasing my willingness to experience and express anger.
But after several small incidents, and one incredibly frustrating experience with a customer service representative last week, where I literally yelled at her (if you know me, you realize how unusual that is) I realize that this is not going to be my issue anymore. My issue is going to be how to control the expression of my anger.
Another example - I generally used to be able to depend on my ability to read other people's emotions, but it seems that ability is changing. I seem to be less able to do that. There is actually scientific evidence for this. So my work moves into working to be more conscious, and asking when I don't know.
It's all good, but it's really interesting to me to watch how this is changing for me.