I had a conversation with myself this morning. One side of me, let's call her Outraged, was annoyed at what the other side of me, let's call her Stillness, was thinking.
Outraged said, "I can't believe you're sitting there looking at everything happening and not doing anything."
Stillness answered, "I'm doing what makes sense to me. Living my life as full of compassion and joy as I can manage. Meeting everyone with kindness. Is there anything else I can do?"
"But you should be outraged at the fact that a black man is killed by police every 28 hours! You should be doing something!"
"You are addicted to outrage, Outrage."
"How dare you say that!"
"See, your blood pressure is up. That's adrenaline flowing. You're going to get addicted to your own adrenaline."
"But we can't allow this to happen! What are you doing, sitting there looking at the trees?"
"Calm down, Outrage. This happened. We must accept that it happened, and keeps happening. Is there anything I can do at this moment that will prevent it from happening in another 28 hours?"
"Stillness, what are you talking about? Accept it? How dare you accept this! That's horrible!"
"All I am saying is that what has happened, has happened. We can't change the past."
"I'm sorry, but I can't accept it! I won't accept it!"
"Outrage, can you turn the clock back to Saturday, or yesterday?"
"Well, of course not."
"Then, you must accept that it happened. You must accept that it happened twice more since."
"So what's your alternative, Ms. Stillness?"
"I don't have an easy answer, Outrage. This is a very complex issue. It won't come untangled easily."
"Oh, so you don't have an answer, but you want to accuse me of being addicted to outrage? I'm outraged!"
"Well, I do know that if everyone approached everyone else with kindness, this wouldn't happen. So I'll just start with me. I will make a commitment to approach everyone I meet with kindness."
"Pah, I hope you're not holding your breath, waiting for everyone do do that."
"Is being outraged any better, Outrage?"